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Post by The Yak Emperor on Apr 4, 2024 19:02:05 GMT
Anyone ever suffered with this before? Not fun. Been having them on-and-off for 5 or 6 years now. Been a particularly rough week, but I'm pushing through slowly.
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Post by burrunjor on Apr 4, 2024 19:16:30 GMT
Oh yes I've been there many, many times. If you need to talk PM me. Meanwhile whilst I can relate my own experiences and hopefully show you that it can get better, I'd still recommend you talk to a professional if you can. Is there anyone else in your immediate circle you can talk to? Never EVER hold it in. Even just sharing it here is a great first step, but again remember we are all limited in our understanding.
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Post by rushy on Apr 4, 2024 19:23:48 GMT
I have the opposite of this. I'm terrified of dying without an afterlife. I like existing. Not existing ever again is the most nihilistic thing I can think of.
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Post by The Yak Emperor on Apr 4, 2024 19:31:25 GMT
Oh yes I've been there many, many times. If you need to talk PM me. Meanwhile whilst I can relate my own experiences and hopefully show you that it can get better, I'd still recommend you talk to a professional if you can. Is there anyone else in your immediate circle you can talk to? Never EVER hold it in. Even just sharing it here is a great first step, but again remember we are all limited in our understanding. Thanks for your concern, it means a lot. Not really to be honest, hence why I'm putting it out there on a f*cking Doctor Who forum of all places lol. Meanwhile this isn't anything new. Like I said I've been going through this since I was 14 or 15. Just something I have to deal with I guess...
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Post by burrunjor on Apr 4, 2024 19:55:38 GMT
Oh yes I've been there many, many times. If you need to talk PM me. Meanwhile whilst I can relate my own experiences and hopefully show you that it can get better, I'd still recommend you talk to a professional if you can. Is there anyone else in your immediate circle you can talk to? Never EVER hold it in. Even just sharing it here is a great first step, but again remember we are all limited in our understanding. Thanks for your concern, it means a lot. Not really to be honest, hence why I'm putting it out there on a f*cking Doctor Who forum of all places lol. Meanwhile this isn't anything new. Like I said I've been going through this since I was 14 or 15. Just something I have to deal with I guess... Man I'm really sorry to hear that, but if it makes you feel any better I'd say about 90 percent of young people are lonely these days. Millennials and Gen Z are the lonely generations. Combination of many things, too many distractions in the house and ways to get to know people without meeting them, poverty, COVID, death of pubs, sleaziness of clubs, everybody being splintered by the culture war etc. It's hard but don't give up. In the end if you want to you will, maybe right now you don't want too meet anyone? That happens and no shame in it. Better to get your shit together first. Meanwhile I think if you can trying to talk to a professional is a good idea. I've always found it easier to talk to a woman therapist, but you might have your own preferences. (I don't want to put male therapists out of a job LOL.) Even if you don't see them face to face there are professionals you can talk to online. The stigma needs to be broken and more people need to talk out about it.
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Post by Cherry Pepsi Maxil on Apr 4, 2024 20:03:54 GMT
I was close to killing myself back in 2020 when I lost my sanity. I still can't believe how badly I spiralled that year. Without my family I probably wouldn't be here.
Definitely speak to someone about it. Don't let it build up like I did.
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Post by The Yak Emperor on Apr 4, 2024 23:21:07 GMT
Man, this is hard
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Post by Cherry Pepsi Maxil on Apr 4, 2024 23:29:52 GMT
It is. It's absolute hell a lot of the time. I will say though that I was dead set on ending it all and now I wouldn't dream of it. The mindset does change. I've still got chronic depression, but I'd rather take that than feel like my life is over. You have focus on the little pleasures of life. When things get on top of me, I usually make some tea and watch comedy stuff in bed. Start to treat your body and mind to comfortable feelings.
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Post by burrunjor on Apr 5, 2024 9:13:44 GMT
My worst period was 2020, though I had a dark period in 2019. To be honest that whole year is a bit of a blur? I can't really remember as it was more a haze of mental health problems than a year. Whenever I made up with Claudia Boleyn, I think that was 2021, my depressive period was the year before that, as I remember relating to her experiences that year when she was also going through an absolute black hell of depression and gave her some support which led to us reconnecting after a silly falling out over DW of all things LOL.
Again all three of us, me, Claudia and Maxil managed to pull through, so it can be done. At the same time though don't feel there is a time limit on when you'll get better. It's not just a switch, and everyone deals with it in their own way. I think saying to someone "I was better by this time." Is the worst thing you can do, as then if they're not they'll feel like they'll never get better. It's a constant struggle, but one you can absolutely overcome and live a normal life with.
Definitely though try and seek some help. It's funny I had a dream about my therapist last night. I haven't seen her in years, but talking here I guess must have made me nostalgic. It was nice seeing her again even in dream form. She was a total ducky.
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Post by Ludders II on Apr 5, 2024 10:33:42 GMT
Anyone ever suffered with this before? Not fun. Been having them on-and-off for 5 or 6 years now. Been a particularly rough week, but I'm pushing through slowly. Many years ago now. Sorry to hear you're going through this. Just don't give up. Find something to hang on to whilst things are at their worst. There's always something, even if you think you can't see it.
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Post by The Yak Emperor on May 4, 2024 3:53:00 GMT
God man, I won't rant about it on here but tonight was so bad. Think I'm on my way out of it now thank god. Sometimes I wish I could take a drug that would completely eliminate any emotions I felt. The small moments of joy would be worth extinguishing for the misery, fear and anger that I feel on a daily basis.
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Post by burrunjor on May 4, 2024 10:07:49 GMT
God man, I won't rant about it on here but tonight was so bad. Think I'm on my way out of it now thank god. Sometimes I wish I could take a drug that would completely eliminate any emotions I felt. The small moments of joy would be worth extinguishing for the misery, fear and anger that I feel on a daily basis. You need to talk to a professional. I was worried there when I saw that "I'm on my way out of it now." That you were talking about suicide. We're all here if you need us, never forget that, but at the same time we're not professionals obviously so our advice should always be taken with a grain of salt.
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Post by Ludders II on May 4, 2024 10:43:28 GMT
Keep the faith man. Never give in.
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Post by zarius on May 5, 2024 15:08:49 GMT
Sorry you're have these kinds of spells mate. You are a valued human being and are important...I know sometimes hearing that and feeling that can be two separate things on bad days, but on good days, they can make you feel like the world is going to turn a corner for the better.
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