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Post by henshin on Mar 24, 2021 0:42:20 GMT
My tribute to Dana Delorenzo is going to piss them off if what I wore that night triggered them lol LOL you can pay tribute to her by fokking their face with bullets. (Anyone who has seen Ash vs Evil Dead will get that.) Well, i WAS going to do an outfit - but bullets is fine  |
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Post by henshin on Dec 19, 2022 6:21:07 GMT
Hey, everyone!
I just thought i would write a follow-up post for this thread.
Once again, thank you all for lending an ear during what was a very confusing period of my life. It did make the difference!
Just a quick message; i'm moving on. The last year and a bit of this craziness seemed to have just been a phase of sorts. I have some general ideas as to what started it (nothing bad), but i seem to be past it. The appeal in it is gone for me. I think, in short, i was bored, while feeling creatively bored, and just needed to do something outrageous.
While just growing bored with this new fad I set for myself, I also had a few really positive moments this week that helped me approach this resolve.
Just the other day, I went to a staff Christmas party with work dressed as my conventional self in a shirt, jeans and sneakers. I received a tonne of compliments over how I dressed, and I did this by just being me. FYI - they don't know about the more radical side of me. Then, after the party, I had a hairdressers appointment. Again, same thing. I then went out for dinner and as I sat on my own, the people on the neighbouring table said hello and kept looking to me. It got to a point where we engaged in small talk. It turned out at the woman I was speaking to ran a modelling agency. She complimented me on my outfit which struck me as odd because I was just dressed, once again, as my usual masculine self. She even said "you look divine". Wow.
The next day, I went for a run and was dressed in regular running gear. From behind, i hear a cyclist approaching on the path, so I stepped aside to let them through. I made eye contact with the cyclist and it turned out to be my Year 11 English teacher from 2007. We recognised each other immediately and he looked in awe to me as, back then, i was quite chubby. Now, as you have seen, my figure is fairly athetlic. He asked me how I was doing and seemed blown away by how far I had come, and even gave me a hug as though it was the good news he needed.
So, in short, i've just realised that I have lots to offer as myself. I don't need a pretense, I don't need an alternate persona. People just seem to like me for me. It feels good.
So, once again, thanks everyone! You all made time to read this thread, along with my anxieties. But, you now know that I am ok and actually come full circle. I feel great. So, 2023, the old me returns with refreshed focus and appreciation for who I am.
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Post by burrunjor on Dec 19, 2022 11:10:17 GMT
So happy for you Henshin. We and your true friends would have accepted you no matter what always remember that, but it's good that you have found a way to be comfortable as yourself now.
Personally I think your persona always shined through though, which is a good thing as it means it was strong and we all appreciated it.
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